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SHIN KIDOU SENKI GUNDAM WING

SAINAN NO KEKKA
ACT VII, PART IV

 

Subete ga kirameite ita osanai
Hi no kiseki torimodoshite

I just feel rhythm emotion
Ayamachi mo itami mo
Azayaka na isshun no hikari e to michibiite

I just feel rhythm emotion
Kono mune no kodou wa
Anata e to tsuzuiteru so faraway

We're reviving the days of youth
When everything was shining

I just feel rhythm emotion
Mistakes and pain
Guide us towards a moment of light

I just feel rhythm emotion
The beat of my heart
Carries to you so faraway

--Gundam Wing, Rhythm Emotion
[Second TV opening theme]

 
 
Scene XII: Keeper of an Assassin's Soul

 

"I am not a pretty girl; that is not what I do.
I ain't no damsel in distress,
And I don't need to be rescued."
--Ani diFranco, Not a Pretty Girl

 
"Do I know you?" the blond woman said.

Atsuki sized her up for a moment, taking in the long, immaculately dressed blond tresses, the simple but elegant white gown, the wide, innocent blue eyes, the high cheekbones. They looked enough alike, she decided, that they could have been sisters in another life.

She hadn't really seen the face of the Queen of Cinq on the news or in the papers, but she had expected a tall woman with a stern voice and a quick temper, someone like Fatima Bint Narish. Political women, her father had drummed into her at a young age, were scheming, ruthless and bitter. They had to be, to survive in a world where men were naturally dominant.

But at first glance, Relena Darlian Peacecraft was none of these things, and for a moment Atsuki felt a stab of doubt. Was this the woman to whom Heero Yuy had reportedly been attached? No, not even a woman. Relena Peacecraft was still a girl.

"No, you don't," Atsuki said at last, not bothering to keep the disdain from her voice. "But before we're through here, I think you'll know me better than you want to."

"I think," Relena said calmly, "that you should get out of my way."

Atsuki raised an eyebrow. "And why should I?"

"I'm the Queen of Cinq," Relena said, perhaps louder than she needed to. Atsuki didn't move. "I have important business to take care of. Now if you'll excuse me."

"I won't," Atsuki said, moving to block her way. "Now, really. I'd think that the vaunted high-profile Queen of Cinq would be more polite to a mere commoner."

She saw the fire rise in Relena's eyes for a moment, then saw the queen check herself with a visible effort. "What do you want with me?" she said tightly.

"Oh, nothing much," Atsuki said. "I'd just heard rumors that you were once...involved with Heero Yuy, and I wanted to see for myself if they were true." Looking her over again. "You look like a nice enough girl. Why would you want someone like him?"

"Heero and I were never involved," Relena said tightly. "We're acquaintances. That's all. I don't know where you heard the rumors from, but they are mistaken."

Atsuki narrowed her eyes. "Are they? Didn't you know? He talks in his sleep."

She had the satisfaction of seeing the shocked look on the other girl's face. Taking a step forward. "I just want you to know...Wing - Heero - is mine."

"What makes you word it like I have a contract on him?" Relena demanded. "Heero isn't anyone's...he's a person. A person can't belong to another person."

"Can he?"

Relena narrowed her eyes. "I don't know who you are," she said, "and I don't know why you're attacking me when I've never seen you before in my life. But I advise you to kindly step out of my way before anything drastic happens."

"Let me tell you about myself," Atsuki said. "I've spent the last six years of my life in the Breaks of L1. I'm what you'd call a whore. I sell my body to men...and some women, if necessary...to survive. I run drugs from dealer to buyer. I drink, I smoke, and I have so many substances floating in my veins that you probably couldn't extract pure blood from me if you tried. What can you say to that, Relena Darlian Peacecraft?"

Relena looked shocked. "What?"

Her mission had been to catch the queen completely off her guard, and it was working. "Let me tell you something, your majesty. Your perfect little world is about to collapse in on itself, and you'll be at the center. It'll pull you in. Life's not all you make it out to be, Relena. You're not living in a cocoon anymore."

Relena's face was white. "How dare you?" Her voice was shaking with barely restrained fury. "How dare you threaten me? Who are you to say things like this?"

Atsuki laughed, spinning lightly on one foot out of Relena's reach, pausing with hands on the wall, leaning forward. "Haven't you guessed?" She laughed again. "I'm Quatre's sister."

She was around the corner before Relena could react, jogging quickly up the carpeted hallway, up a half-set of stairs, into a small, circular foyer filled with display cases. She slowed to a walk, catching her breath. She couldn't hear anyone behind her, and she didn't think Relena would have followed her anyway.

She continued forward, passing through to the entrance of a hallway on the other side of the room, walking blindly, the memory of Relena's stunned face still before her eyes. That was one of the stupidest things she had ever done...yet she'd felt like she had to do it. She had to make sure that Relena's claim on Wing was not stronger than hers.

I told myself I'd never fall in love again...and now I remember why.

Stupid, really. She didn't even know the other girl, and now she'd probably have the Queen of Cinq hating her for the rest of her life. Quatre wouldn't be happy either, when he found out that she'd been going around insulting royalty.

But she really didn't care.

The hallway ended abruptly in a sliding glass door which looked out onto a green atrium of some sort. She hesitated, then stepped forward. The door opened automatically and she found herself amidst carefully potted shrubbery. A fountain tinkled in the center of the atrium and she tucked a strand of hair back behind her ear, wondering why a military base had a place like this.

"Atsuki?"

She jumped and spun around to where the voice had come from behind her, taking a step back in surprise.

"Darkflight?" she stammered.

The dark-skinned boy frowned at her, obviously as stunned as she was. "What the hell are you doing here? I thought you were back home."

"I could ask you the same thing." She looked him over with a critical eye. He had cleaned up a bit, combed his hair somewhat, and shaved. His clothes were still the old garments he'd had in the Breaks, but they looked like they'd been washed. For a moment she felt slightly embarrassed at her own fine silk garments, courtesy of Scheherazade Winner's wardrobe.

"Talk about coincidences. I thought it was you from the back...but..."he trailed off. "How'd you get here?"

She sighed. "Long story. I should have guessed you've have come along with Wing..."

"I almost didn't," Darkflight said, then paused, narrowed his eyes. "Wait. How did you know Wing was here?"

She almost laughed. "Well, he is the vaunted savior of the colonies, after all. And apparently the world's most wanted criminal at the moment. Wasn't too hard to figure out."

"You figured out who he was?" Darkflight sounded even more incredulous. His eyes were wide.

"I'm not as stupid as you think," Atsuki said.

He looked hurt. "I didn't say-"

She waved off the rest of his statement. "Right. I know. Look, I'm not in the best mood right now, so...I don't really feel like talking to anyone."

"Fine," he said, but she caught a trace of hesitation in his voice.

"Darkflight?"

"What?" he muttered, turning away.

To all appearances he was still the Darkflight she had known back in the Breaks, but something was different. Wrong. She couldn't pinpoint it, but it was there. He seemed more...fragile, somehow.

"You've changed," she said.

"So have you," he returned. A silence, then "I hardly recognize you...I feel like I don't know you anymore."

"Did you ever know me?" she shot back, strangely nettled by his comment, but he didn't even snap back at her.

"It's only been a week..." Suddenly he looked up at her with wide, stricken eyes and she almost jumped. That was what had changed about him. Why it felt wrong. The air of mystery and confidence and deadliness that had always surrounded both him and Wing was gone, vanished as though it had never been. Here, in the Preventers military headquarters, Darkflight was just another frightened boy.

"It'll be ok," Atsuki murmured, trying to force some honesty into her words. "It'll...it'll all be all right."

"What will be all right?" he said. There was a surge of anger in his words. "What? Atsuki, what the hell is going on?"

"I wish I knew," she murmured.

"Gundams and war and royalty and politics," Darkflight said vehemently. "I don't belong here. I want to go home. I...I don't know what's going on, anymore, Atsuki. I feel like I've been dragged along for the ride and then left on the side of the road when they didn't need me anymore."

"Maybe you have," Atsuki said. "Where's....Wing?"

"You mean, Heero?" Darkflight's voice took on a sarcastic edge. "I have no idea. He's too important for someone like me now...they took him away. Told me I couldn't come with him." He sounded a little panicked. "Atsuki, we've always been together. If..."

He didn't finish the thought, but she knew what he was going to say. If they take him away from me, I don't know what I'll do.

Suddenly she felt like crying, but tears were no use now, and she hadn't cried since she had heard Jaffa's voice on the speaker in the phone booth, seen her sister's face on the vidscreen and known with a chilling certainty that nothing would ever be the same again.

"Well," she said, "there's no use sitting here. Let's go find someone who will tell us what's going on."

"You go." Darkflight sounded miserable. "There's no point in me going anywhere."

"Moron!" she snapped. "You can't let the situation control you. You're stronger than this. I know you are."

He looked at her like she'd grown a second head. "Even if we did manage to find someone, no one would tell us what's going on anyway. Atsuki, we're nobodies."

There was a second in which she debated whether or not to tell him. He was confiding in her because he believed that they were the same: unwanted fugitives without a purpose, drawn here by the central figure of someone neither of them could bear to lose. And yet, he had to know some time. And she wanted him to hear it from her. It would lessen the shock that way.

"Darkflight," she said gently. "I'm not a nobody. I can...What do you want? I can get it done for you. Anything you want."

"Are you crazy?" he blurted. "You think you can compete with the likes of that queen and those other pilots for Wing?"

"Not only for Wing," Atsuki said, moving so she stood in front of him, grasping his shoulders. "For anything. You see, Darkflight, I came here with Quatre Raberba Winner."

His eyes locked onto hers and he went still. "You...with him? Why? How?"

For the second time that day she found herself uttering the words that had been both her birthright and her destruction, the words that even now she wondered if she still believed to be true.

"He's my brother."

 


 
Scene XIII: The Prison of His Mind

 

"Down once more to the dungeon of my black despair!
Down we plunge to the prison of my mind!
Down that path into darkness deep as hell!"
--The Phantom of the Opera, The Point of No Return

 
And after, came the dawn of a new day.

He had been doubting that; even his normally optimistic outlook on life had been severely tested. He had survived so much before- being on the L2 streets, the Maxwell Church massacre, piloting Deathscythe, the Zero... he had survived them all. But politics and their repercussions would be the death of him.

He looked at Hilde, who sat curled up on chair beside him, her head resting on his right arm. Something had happened during the flight; he wasn't sure exactly what it was, but during his confrontation with Shinobu, she had snapped back to herself, preventing him from overreacting. Now she slept, a true, deep sleep that was untroubled by the nightmares that had plagued her since she had piloted the Zero. He was relieved; for a while he had wondered if she had truly broken.

And if he had broken with her.

Over in the co-pilot's seat Sally hummed softly, her voice pleasant, though slightly off key. Duo wasn't much of a musician, but he did have perfect pitch. She tapped a course correction in, and then turned over to him. In her hands was a VR set, a training tool that he knew the Preventers were incorporating into their basic training. Very expensive, and very addicting. He'd heard of cases where people had literally starved to death while attached to one of the things.

"You might like to use this," she said softly. The headphones and goggles dangled off the tips of her fingers enticingly.

He shivered. "No thanks," he said.

She smiled. "I thought you might want to brush up on your piloting skills- it's been a while since you sat behind the controls of a MS. One of the programs is designed for Mobile Suit training."

His scowl deepened. "I don't think so. I really don't like those things. They screw with your head. I prefer to live in the real world."

Sally tossed it to him, and he instinctively caught it instead of letting it fall. "Une gave it to me- you can trust there's enough fail safes involved that you'll be in no danger. Besides, it's not even connected to the net. No need to worry about hackers."

He looked at the intricate mix of wire, chips, padding and plastic. G had hooked him up to this type of device very early in his training, and he hadn't liked it at all. He valued reality, and VR was so "real" to the participant that sometimes a person lost the sense of self. What point was there in dealing with a harsh and uncertain world when all you had to do was throw on a headset and live out your greatest fantasy? Why would anyone want to return to the real world? He'd read about people who'd been hooked to systems for years, their families forced to take care of them or send them to nursing homes.

But it was a tool, and Sally was correct in indicating that his piloting skills might be a touch rusty. Aside from his brief flight to Earth chasing Hilde, it had been over eighteen months since he had sat behind the panels, since he had fought a battle. He knew he was still exceptional, but that wouldn't help- he needed to be extraordinary again. "Does this just work on visual and auditory senses, or is there a tactile component as well?"

"It's the latest. Works on everything- smell, sight, touch, taste and sound. The wiring actually interfaces with your brain and stimulates different parts of it depending on what you do while in it. It shuts down after four hours automatically, and takes another eight hours to restart to prevent addiction. It also has an emergency shutdown that Hilde or I can invoke if your vitals start to destabilize."

He shivered. "It sounds like you're going to be making me into a cyborg."

"Some of the technology may someday be used to create one."

Before he could change his mind, he slid away from Hilde to go sit into the co-pilot's seat. It was a complete-body support, which he would need- if this VR set was as good as Sally claimed, he would forget about his body and become immersed in full-sensation simulation, designed to respond to his mind.

Hilde sleepily opened her eyes as she was suddenly deprived of his warmth. "Are we there?" she asked.

"Another hour before we get to Beijing, and then about ten minutes to the place where Wufei was living," Sally said. "Shinobu and Helena are getting some sleep, and I wanted to give Duo a brief refresher in MS combat."

Hilde's hand reached up and brushed sleep out of her eyes. "How about I train with him? It's much more effective for him to face a human pilot- machines always are too... mechanical." She laughed light at her joke. "And I'm a pretty good pilot- I outflew Mercurius and Vayeate, after all... and those things were programmed with Heero and Trowa's flight data!"

Sally smiled at her. "I only have the one set. And I don't advise you to go into an VR right now, anyway.... you're still not recovered from your encounter with the Zero."

Hilde shuddered at the name.

Duo crammed the intricate mesh netting over his head, trying to ignore the feeling in the pit of his stomach. It wasn't a phobia, exactly. He'd just been attached to one too many simulations. His last ones had been at the hands of a rather sadistic Oz officer who had shoved him into the Zero system. Not a pleasant memory.

He felt Sally clip a little chip to the optical pad, and paste another right behind his left ear with some kind of gel. "These will record your vitals, and let us know if you need to be brought out. I've scheduled your session for an hour- if it goes well, we can do a few longer sessions later. It'll also let us know if you get overstimulated mentally," she said, hooking the newest gadgets to a box of some sort with long wire relays.

His fingers secured the contact points carefully before he tucked the small headphones into his ears. Hilde watched him carefully as he lifted the heavy goggles over his eyes, plunging himself into utter blackness. Someone started fumbling for his hands, and he obligingly let them slide the gloves onto him.

"If you want to end the simulation early, raise your right hand and tap your ear three times- Hilde and I will bring you out immediately. We'll also bring you out if your vitals become too erratic. Ready, Duo?"

"Ready."

Suddenly he was in the cockpit of a standard Taurus. From the configuration, it was a White Fang model, the very best of the best. He'd never liked Virgos, so he considered the Taurus the superior "common" machine. They had nothing on a Gundam, but if he had to pilot a suit of a line, it was better that it was a Taurus. Noin and Trowa had both relied on them. Besides, the stick and panel configuration was eerily familiar. He had always suspected that G's work had been used.

Almost instinctively, he checked the straps that held him to the seat, and adjusted one. He preferred them slightly loose, so he could move around. Heero had called him an idiot for that, but Duo knew that a pilot's comfort was important. How could you fight feeling like you were tied down to a chair?

His fingers reached out and grabbed the stick, pulling back slightly. If it had been Deathscythe, the suit would have sprung into action at that slight bit of nudging from him, but the Taurus wasn't nearly as responsive. He frowned as he pulled a little harder, wondering if this training really had any point. This machine felt different... he couldn't "feel" it the way he could Deathscythe; he couldn't understand it or make it understand him. Hilde had teased him about talking to his MS, but to him, Deathscythe was very real and very much his friend.

The suit engaged, and he checked his coordinates. According to the sim, he was somewhere off L3, which was just fine with him. He liked space combat, though it'd be infinitely more difficult since he didn't have Deathscythe's stealth capabilities on his side. His favored tactics had always been to sneak up on the enemy, and attack them from behind. Unlike Wufei, he had no qualms about honor- he was a terrorist, and there was nothing wrong with knifing a man in the back.

The scanners alerted him to the presence of an incoming bogey. Glancing down, he saw that it was a Leo. "Come on, give me a challenge," he muttered.

It took him three deft movements to engage the Taurus's beam rifle as he deftly avoided the half-hearted attempt at an attack the simulated suit launched at him. He watched it explode, and sighed.

How boring.

Two more Leos came at him at complementary angles. With a few more programmed commands, and a lazy jerk of the stick, he destroyed them as well.

"Oi, Sally! Did ya start me on the beginners level?" He laughed lightly at the notion, not feeling that amused. Surely she didn't think his skills had atrophied that much?

More Leos, trying various different strategies. He fended them off almost half-asleep, wondering how much longer this playing was going to last. If they were going to start him in a sim, he wanted a real fight.

Two more Leos, and then the CMD identified a Taurus. He brightened, focused his sensors, engaged it. It feinted, dodged his first blast, and fired. He felt a shudder as his sim suit took a hit. Impressive - this was definitely simulated full-body immersion. Feeling slightly more impressed, he let the other Taurus swoop around him before he twisted to starboard and took care of it with three carefully placed shots, grimacing as he did so. Once upon a time, he could have done it with one.

Another Taurus, same result. The old moves were coming back to him and he started to feel almost nostalgic, the suit rocking back and forth just as a real Taurus would in battle. He was thrown once against the back of his seat, but his straps held, thankfully. Even though it was only a sim, he knew the mental anguish the training program had been design to inflict on the user wasn't light. The Preventers believed in the old saying, "No pains, no gains."

And then came the mobile dolls.

Virgos.

He hated them more then anything- to him, they had always seemed like a cowards' trick. He remembered the final battle, when Dorothy had flown an entire complement against him and the others using the Zero system. He gritted his teeth, giving increased power to engines, draining power slightly from his guns. Fighting mobile dolls required intense, precise maneuvering rather than heavy firing, and he needed all the power his engines could give him.

This was only a Taurus, after all.

There were only three dolls, but that was enough to keep anyone busy. Their movements were perfectly coordinated...eerily perfect.

Is this a sim, or have I been dreaming? Is this real?

He winced as the sim rocked with another hit, then another. The goggles jolted against his cheek, jarring his teeth, causing him to bite the inside of his mouth. Each Virgo had its own particular pattern, since the minds behind them were unique. He sat up straighter in the seat, forced himself to concentrate on one doll at a time instead of setting the targeting system on nearest enemy craft automatic target, which he usually preferred when the opposition wasn't too tough.

He caught the first one as it attempted to slip by his port side around behind him. The second one, apparently seeing his buddy's downfall, came zooming in above him, careened too far in on his trajectory, and Duo simply dropped down and behind it, catching it perfectly in the engines. The fireball was spectacular. The third one was in the middle of a standard delta pattern flight run when he finished it off with two well-placed shots.

The explosion faded away and he found himself staring at the colony before him. It was quiet. His hands were cold.

What's happening?

There was a quiet beep as the CMD registered an enemy craft coming in at ninety-five klicks and he wiped his sweaty palms on the sides of his pants, prepared to engage.

Sucked in a breath as the craft registered on his screen.

"Shit," he breathed.

It was Wing Zero.

There was no mistaking the crested head, the frighteningly bright eyes and the green saber that lit like a torch as the Gundam swooped in on its approach trajectory. He watched in horror as it raised the blade, swinging it high above its head, and his hands were frozen on the stick.

"Oh fuck," he mouthed, and forced his fingers to move, to push the stick forward, and spun into a diving roll just as the sword began its downward descent. He could feel the heat of it through the back of his Taurus as it narrowly missed.

He could almost imagine it was Heero in there, Heero with the grim lines of his face and the hard eyes, emotionlessly raising the energy blade again for another kill. Targeting the enemy, no matter who it was. No matter if it was the boy who had once been his best friend.

Were we ever friends, Heero?

Maybe...maybe it was Heero in there. His hands trembled on the fire controls and he felt himself shaking against his seat restraints. What if it had come to this? What if he had to kill his best friend?

"Heero!" he yelled, fumbling for the comm button. "Heero! Don't do this...it's me...it's your friend, Duo..."

The Gundam turned, eyes flashing, and the blade raised once more. Duo spun to the side but it was too late. He could tell as soon as he began veering off to port that it would do him no good. Felt his mobile suit shudder. Heard the tearing sound as the sword sheared one of the Taurus' legs off and felt the immediate loss of balance and the grinding of internal gears as the Taurus tried to compensate for the sudden shift in its center of gravity, and failed.

As he frantically adjusted the thruster controls, fingers flying across the board, he could see Wing Gundam turning again, this time in a killing stance.

Hot tears squeezed from his eyes as he brought the heads-up-display to focus on the Gundam, abandoning all self-control and gunning the mobile suit into a straight course, squeezing the fire control with all his might. He closed his eyes. If he was going to kill his friend, he'd go down with him in the process.

No...Heero...

"HEERO!" he screamed, and braced himself for the impact of collision.

Instead, he felt the Taurus jolt with a thousand tiny impacts, opened his eyes to see shrapnel pelting the windshield. Turning around behind him, he saw the billowing smoke of an explosion.

His fingers dropped nerveless from the controls and he gasped for breath.

What have I done? What have I done?

He barely heard the beeping of the CMD announcing another enemy craft, transfixed by the explosion behind him, at the knowledge of what he had just destroyed. His vision blurred and he could barely read the craft statistics, saw the readout scroll down the screen in a brilliant haze of digital blue and green.

Gundam Deathscythe Hell, the targeting display read.

His heart almost stopped.

"No," he choked, shaking his head violently, as the Gundam came in low and smooth between the stars, just the way he remembered her, heartbreakingly and almost blindingly beautiful. The Angel of Death.

The targeting display on the CMD blinked again. Pilot: Duo Maxwell.

Deathscythe fired. He couldn't seem to control the Taurus and it took the hit, wobbling on its axis, spinning and falling. Deathscythe gave chase, a bird of prey diving for the kill, and he raised his hands to his eyes, clawed at the plastic and metal encasing them, aware that he was drawing blood. It trickled hot and thick down his face, into his mouth.

"No...no...no..."

Deathscythe opened fire again, blasts spitting from the gun like shooting stars across the landscape of heaven.

"Oh God!" he screamed, raising both hands to his face and the sticky blood. "Let me out! Let me out of here, let me out of here, LET ME OUT-!"

"DUO!"

Suddenly the suit around him dissolved, and Hilde knelt in front of him crouching on her knees. From the way she held the goggles, he guessed that she'd just jerked them off of him, bringing an unnatural ending to the sim. Hilde took his hands, still encased in the black VR gloves and stripped them off. "Your hands are so cold..." she whispered softly. "He's going into shock, Sally," she said accusingly. "We should have brought him out ten minutes ago!"

Sally gave the girl a hard look. "He's a pilot- he'll adjust. I didn't bring him out because he's going to be piloting Deathscythe. He can't have us mothering him- he needs to get back into shape."

"By giving him nightmares?" Hilde said. Her gentle fingers took off the net and unhooked his head from the wire mesh, taking the earphones from him. He was aware that he was trembling, but did his best to ignore it, gratefully accepting the tissue that Hilde handed him to wipe off the blood from his face.

"You should have let me bring him out of it," Sally said stubbornly. "It was only another eight minutes, and it's not good to jerk someone out of a sim, especially when they're having problems. The sudden shock of tranferring between realities can be damaging to the individual."

"Sally..." Hilde growled, started to rise to her feet, appearing as though she was quite prepared to wring the General's neck.

"Hush, Hilde," Duo said to her. It was only three shallow gashes, from what he could feel with his fingers, but the bleeding wouldn't stop. "Sally is, as usual, correct. It's her most annoying quality. I'll be fine."

"But-"

A pinging from in front caused the three to stiffen and turn towards the pilot, who had remained quiet throughout their argument. "We can argue later," Sally said. "We're here."

 


 
Scene XIV: The Angel Without Wings to Fly

 

"Down to the earth I fell with dripping wings
Heavy things won't fly."
-- Nina Gordon, Tonight and the Rest of My Life

 
The girl sat in a makeshift office, her eyes staring blankly at the fax machine, which was cranking out ream after ream of paper. Her long blonde hair was slightly mussed, and her long white dress looked like it had seen a hard day's use. Chris glanced out of the window, surprised by the gathering twilight. Sixteen hours before, he had been at Cliffside Heights; now he was in Geneva, standing before the legendary Relena Peacecraft herself.

Status.

Power.

Prestige.

Christopher Johnsen had never wanted to lay claim to any of them in his life. He was content to remain in relative obscurity, spoiled by the wealth his parents would one day leave to him. He was rich, and money was power, but what good was it really? He'd grown up surrounded by bodyguards, having his life chosen for him. Cliffside Heights was another school in the long lines of schools and institutions that had taken care of him, carefully shepherding him to a life that would be a carbon copy of theirs. He would marry an appropriate wife, have children, and work at increasing the family fortune. Then the cycle would repeat.

It was weird to think that one person could throw centuries worth of family planning into chaos just by being. If Duo Maxwell had chosen another school, been assigned a different roommate... but he hadn't. Helena and Shinobu had been right- Chris had been hiding his head in the sand, hoping that somehow the last month was some kind of nightmare that he would wake up from.

Well, who could really blame him?

Still, he had had just about enough. He may have been a staunch pacifist (why fight when throwing money at a problem usually made it go away?), but even he had his limits. And he'd reached his. Getting kicked out of his room by his girlfriend so she could plot on how to bring the Gundams back to Earth had been the final straw.

Fine.

He would stop going with the flow. His friends had, using their surprising connections and resources, taken matters into their own hands. Well, he had the same things. He was rich, his family was important politically, and he had friends in high places- well, his father did, and that was pretty much the same thing.

He really should have said goodbye, but... he wanted nothing to do with Helena at the moment. He loved her, or thought he did, but sometimes love just wasn't enough to make a relationship work. You needed respect, and trust, and a whole slew of other things that he and Helena apparently didn't have. They had been shallow people before this crisis blew up in their faces, and he recognized that Helena had grown tremendously in the short amount of time that had passed. And he hadn't.

Part of him wanted to blame Duo for turning his life upside down, but he knew that would be unfair. Duo had tried to keep them out of it, but it was just their bad luck that they got sucked in. Life was like that. He hated the idea of the Gundams, hated the fact that someone might be bringing them back. He knew of the devastation that they had wrought last time, and he had a hard time equating his smiling trickster of a roommate with the heartless terrorists who had killed thousands.

He wasn't exactly sure what he was doing here; Relena had been nothing more then a distant figure to him, a paragon. But when it had become apparent that no amount of talking to Helena would stop the Gundams from being brought down to Earth, he knew that he would have to warn someone they were coming, someone who could make a difference. The Preventers were involved up to their necks, since Sally Po was supplying transport. The World Nation... he didn't trust. He'd been about ready to pull his hair out, when he caught a clip of Relena's taped interview on the pilots.

And that gave him his answer. The former Queen of the World had the power to condemn the return of the weapons, and persuade the public not to take up arms in retaliation. The Johnsen name had been enough to get him an appointment with her- after all, no matter what happened politically, economically the world still went on.

The girl looked up from her daze, surprised to see him, even though he'd been standing in the room for over a minute, staring at her. "Can I help you?" she asked politely enough, though her voice wasn't at all like the vibrant soprano that he was used to hearing speak on vid.

"I'm Christopher Johnsen," he said quickly. "My father called your secretary to let him know I'd be speaking with you."

She nodded absentmindedly, obviously recognizing his family name as a financial leader. "I haven't talked with my secretary in almost a week. You should talk to Mr. Javert, he's in charge of Cinq's economics." She turned her attention back to the papers, obviously dismissing him. Her slender hands picked up a pile of them, and she started to scan them, nibbling on the tip of her pencil.

"That's not what I'm here about," he said.

"If you're here to complain about my politics, take a number," she said with great fatigue. She scribbled something in the margins on one of the reports, thoughtfully pursing her lips before continuing. "I have more important work to do than to listen to yet someone else I've infuriated." Her words were impertinent, yet again he noticed the lack of passion behind them.

"Please, your Majesty, I have some information which you might find important."

"What is it?" she asked, sounding entirely not interested.

"They're bringing the Gundams back to Earth, dammit!" he swore, losing his temper. He seemed to be doing a lot of that lately.

She blinked, dropping her pencil. Then she blinked once more, eyes narrowing and lighting up with the life they had been missing. "Catherine?" she called.

Another girl poked her head out of an adjoining room, bright eyes fastening on the stranger in their midst. "Yes, Relena?"

"Mr. Johnsen says that they're going to bring the Gundams back to Earth," she said.

The other girl looked startled. "Who is? Trowa doesn't have Heavyarms, and the others are all accounted for... except Duo, but.." The girl's eyes widened substantially, and she stepped all the way into the room. "Damn it. That's just the kind of half-cocked thing that loony American would do," she growled.

"Um.. excuse me... but who are you?" Christopher asked curiously. He had assumed the girl was one of Relena's assistants, but the casual way she took a seat and began to look at him inquiringly made him reconsider his first thought.

"Catherine Bloom. Trowa Barton is my brother," the girl answer, tossing her shoulder-length hair back from her face. "And what I want to know is how you come by this information, and if you have any details? I doubt they'd let a crackpot get this close to you..." This last was said to Relena.

Relena sighed wearily. "You'd be amazed. I once had a person try to attack me with a pie. It takes all types, I guess. Still, Mr. Johnsen, Cat does bring up a good point. Who are you speaking of exactly, and what makes you think this?"

"Duo Maxwell- he was my roommate at Cliffside. I'll give you a minute to verify that if you need to."

"And we have a winner," Catherine said, rubbing her head as though she was developing a headache. "I don't suppose you know where he is right now?"

"Last I knew, he was going to... Maxwell's Parish? No, Maxwell's Church. It's on a colony somewhere. But he's already been and gone by now. My girlfriend and best friend are helping him hide them."

The girls exchanged glances. "And why are you telling us?" Relena asked cautiously.

"Because I know that you'll help me figure out some way to stop another war," he said fervently. "Please, your Majesty... you helped end a war before..."

Her eyes were sad as she looked at him. "I was merely a pawn, saying things I didn't even begin to understand." She rose to her feet and walked over to the window, turning her back to him. "When I was fifteen, everything was so black and white. I didn't see any of the shades of gray that make life what it is. I didn't realize that people aren't all good or all evil- they're just people. Everyone has hopes, dreams, fears, reasons... even though we may not understand them.

"You get to a point where you start believing you know enough, where you know someone and what they stand for. And then life hits you upside the head, reminding you that you're merely an actor in a grand drama." She turned back to him, leaning against the frame. "I can't do anything to stop the Gundams from coming back. Duo has made that decision, and we're going to have to let Une and the military deal with it. Maybe if we're lucky, they'll do a good job. It's not a political matter- it's a military one. It's time we started to trust others to do their jobs- I can't do everything."

"But- that doesn't sound like absolute pacifism," he said. "That sounds like... capitulation." The girl who stood in front of him was slender and proud, but he was starting to realize she was human.

"I don't think it is. It's facing reality, Mr. Johnsen. Let the Gundams come- trust Duo to do what is right.

"When I was younger, I thought I could solve all the problems in the world. I can't. I thought I could save... someone special, show them the 'right' way to live. I can't do that, either. I just had a very vivid reminder that we all must be free to make our own mistakes and choose our own course in life. While it may hurt the ones who love us, being true to what you are is what's best."

While Relena spoke, Catherine had risen to her feet, and put a mothering arm around the other girl. Catherine was a good three inches taller then the politician, and at least fifteen pounds heavier. Relena seemed as fragile as a butterfly, and just as ready to take flight. There was an ethereal quality to her, and Chris became aware that the last month must have been very trying. "Relena, go take a nap. You can speak to Heero later this evening- I'll show Mr. Johnsen out."

"But-" Relena started to protest.

"It'll be ok. Shoo!" Catherine propelled her gently towards the door Chris had entered by, shooting her a mothering look of admonition.

"Good-bye, Mr. Johnsen," Relena said, pausing at the doorway and looking over her shoulder at him. "I appreciate you taking the time to tell me of this, it's just.... I'm not the one to deal with it. I advise you speak to General Une."

And then she was gone.

Christopher felt like someone had taken a two by four and hit him upside the head. This hadn't been what he'd been expecting. He'd been hoping that Relena would take up his cause, and find some action to prevent a disaster. At the very least, he'd been expecting to fire her up, and hear some words of wisdom, something saying he'd done the right thing. Something to convince him that abandoning his friends in pursuit of a higher ideal hadn't been a mistake.

Instead he'd been treated to a young woman who seemed tired by reality, imprisoned by her own exhaustion; a woman who seemed unable to take action anymore. He stared at the doorway where she had stood, unable to believe that that slender girl had been the Queen of the World, the Advocate of Absolute Pacifism, the Dove of her Peace. He didn't want to believe it.

"Don't be too hard on her," another voice said, and he jumped slightly. He'd forgotten Catherine was still there.

"Shouldn't I be? She's just going to let it happen, when it's in her power to possibly stop it!"

"Oh? And what's she supposed to do? She's a politician, when it comes down to it.... a politician of a small country with no standing military. While it may have one of the strongest economies, Cinq won't be able to do much aside from threaten sanctions- and who would she sanction? You and I both know Duo wouldn't care. Her pretty words won't get her anywhere this time... and she has other matters to worry about. Quatre is about to go on trial, she found out today that one of her close friends just died, and another of her close friends is a drug addict who won't have anything to do with her. It's not pretty, Mr. Johnsen. She's human, and a human can only take so much before breaking."

"But-"

"Listen to her. She advised you to speak to Une- go do that. Drop a request off here tomorrow and I'll have Relena sign it to give you admission. Okay?"

"What good will talking to Une do? They're supplying the transportation!"

Catherine raised an eyebrow. "I hadn't heard that, but then again, I'm just a civilian, one with very little standing. Une's a remarkable woman, though- talk to her, and see what she says. She may surprise you."

 


 
Scene XV: Things that Blow Up in the Night

 

"LibertE, EgalitE FraternitE"
[Liberty, Equality, Fraternity]

 
The boy slid like a shadow across the darkened pavement of the alley, silent like the onset of night, his movements catlike and sure. The air was quiet with the quiet of deep night, still and heavy and dead, with fitful gusts of wind skittering dead leaves across the broken pavement. The boy slipped into the shadow of a tall building, crouching low just beneath one boarded up window, feet moving swiftly and surely through the broken shards of glass that littered the area just beside where aging brick met the rings of a chain link fence. He stopped. Waited.

Someone coughed.

That was enough for the boy, and he moved back the way he had come, back through the alleyway, through the inky blackness, avoiding the wells of light that pooled at the foot of lone streetlamps jutting out from the shadows of crumbling buildings. The long unlit end of the fuse in his hand was cold to his fingers, and he palmed it from hand to hand, staring up at the sky.

He had arrived at the outskirts of Milan four nights ago, with a pack on his back and a few coins in his pocket, but he hadn't been worried. Cash was useless here. The people who had what he needed wouldn't take just any money, because it was a dangerous business that they were in, and a wrong glance could mean death. He knew that better than anyone, and so he had bided his time, waiting invisibly in the alleys smelling of rotting sewage and under the neon signs of bars as the evening had dwindled and turned into night, and he had seen what he wanted.

The man was heavily built, his neck as thick as both of the boy's forearms together, but that meant nothing to the boy. He had followed the man inside the bar, stood in the thick smoke cloud that obscured the air like poison, as the man had ordered some cloudy yellow drink and sat, sipping, staring into space. Then he had moved softly, unheard under the grating, pulsing music, and tapped the man on the shoulder.

The man turned.

"I need something from you, sir," the boy had said, in English, half-bowing politely, as if he was not facing a grizzled drunk but instead had been ushered into the presence of a king.

The scarred mouth twisted in a faint sneer. "How much you pay?" The broken English was uttered with a heavy Italian accent, but the boy understood him well enough. Wordlessly, he untucked his shirt, drew back the heavy material from his stomach.

There were two black rings around his waist, obvious tattoos, thin rings but still visible in the murky air of the bar. The man's eyes widened and the boy pulled up the shirt further to reveal a third ring, this one red, a dragon's shape, like the other two rings, wrapped around his stomach, curving around to his back.

"What you want?" the man demanded, obviously shaken.

"Come with me," he said, "and I'll show you."

The man looked at him warily, but the boy stared steadily at him, unmoving, and finally he rose, towering at his full height above the boy. "Show," he ordered.

The boy made his way effortlessly back through the smoke and the crowd, emerging outside into the cool night, moonless with the cold pricking of stars the only light besides the harsh street lighting. A dog howled somewhere far away. It was getting colder.

"If you trick me," the man said from behind him, his voice rough and threatening, "I kill you."

The boy smiled.

"Would you?"

There was an uncertain silence behind him, and the boy spun around in a combat crouch. The big man was taken by surprise and he stumbled backwards, hand grasping for the gun that all inhabitants of this realm carried under their clothes.

"I'm not here to lie to you," the boy said, and shifted fluidly out of the crouch, reaching into his pocket and pulling out a pouch. The man's eyes widened as the boy pulled at the pouch's strings, lithe fingers moving quickly and efficiently, pouring a little bit of the pouch's contents into the palm of his left hand. The powder glittered like snow.

"It's pure," the boy said. "All of it. How much can I get?"

The man was still watching the powder warily, unbelievingly, eyes going to the boy's face in wonder. "How you get?" he demanded, one hand still resting awkwardly on the gun under his jacket.

"I have my contacts," the boy said. "The nature of which you do not need to know."

"You-" the man pressed, harshly. "How old? How you get? How many you have?"

The boy closed his hand over the powder, holding the fist upside down, ready to scatter it over the ground. "If you don't want it-"

"Stop! Wait." The big clumsy fingers were groping again, this time at his right side, taking out a bit of scrap paper and a broken pencil. Scribbling. "Here. Go here."

The boy siphoned the powder back into the pouch and took the paper. "Thank you." He turned to leave.

"You liar! You no give me what you bring!"

The boy stopped in his tracks. "When I know you're not lying," he said, "I'll give you what you want."

"You no come back?"

There was a short pause and then the boy reached into his boot, drew out a small, slender pistol. "If I don't come back," he said, "You're free to keep this."

The man reached out to the offered weapon, clearly not convinced that this was not an elaborate game. "I keep?"

"Only if I don't come back," the boy said clearly. "If I return...It's still mine."

The man's eyes gleamed at him once from the darkness, and then a hand suddenly snatched the gun and then there was silence. The boy stared at the spot where his contact had been, then shrugged, looked down at the paper in his hands. There was an address scribbled there, an address and a name.

The gun was an old one, highly prized, and very rare. It would be a shame to lose it, but he had other bargaining tools, and he could easily take it back even if the man decided to keep it. Though he'd done his research well before he had decided to take the chance. The Italian Mafia was still as closed as it had been to outsiders, but no one would dare question the authority of a member of the Japanese yakuza to get exactly what he wanted, in any country.

He rubbed at his stomach where the tattoos were, hidden back under his clothes. It was not an official designation, the tattoos, considering that he was not even Japanese, and they had been gotten long ago, when he was still a child. But they meant that he could be trusted, and that was a valuable asset, especially since the World Nation had begun to truly turn its attention to the various organized crime groups throughout the world since the war had ended.

The boy didn't know what to think of the World Nation's current pet project, and he preferred not to think about it, if possible. He did know that it would not succeed. Where old groups died, new groups would be born, whether they called themselves the yakuza or the Mafia or the Tong or the Shionji Cartel or any other name. The name was not important. And after a while, the World Nation would give up.

He fingered the piece of paper in his pocket and resumed walking, glancing at faded street signs, picking his way steadily south. A few blocks later, the streets widened slightly and a few cars passed him by, their blinding headlights raking their way over his vision, but he didn't look up, didn't stop, kept walking.

Another few blocks and the streets abruptly shifted back to the narrow maze that he had just exited, except here the buildings were closer together, a little more well-maintained. Laundry still hung outside some rusted fire escapes, and there were lights in the broken windows. A residential neighborhood?

The address was of a street he was not familiar with, but the street names seemed to be following a regular pattern, and it was not long until he hit the street he was looking for. There were no streetlamps at all lighting the dark pavement, and as he stared into the blackness, he felt the prickle on the back of his neck that signaled he was being watched.

He straightened but did not turn.

"I'm looking for Gietti," he said. "Where can I find him?"

A whisper of sound. "I am Gietti," the voice said, low, deep, with only a trace of accent. "Who are you?"

"Yakuza."

"What brings the yakuza to my door?"

"Nothing," the boy said calmly. "I do not represent my clan. I am here on private affairs."

The voice did not respond, perhaps studying him, perhaps doubting that he was telling the truth. The boy waited. He had told the truth, as far as the man would ever know. It didn't matter that he no longer belonged to the yakuza, that he no longer belonged to the clan. The tattoos on his stomach spoke louder than any words ever could, and he would be believed.

Apparently, the man came to the same conclusion. "What do you want?" he said.

"Goods," the boy said calmly.

"Those are not easily bought," Gietti returned. "How much are you willing to pay?"

Again, he reached down, pulled out the pouch. There was a intake of breath, and he was undoing the tie of the pouch when a hand reached out of the blackness, clamped down over his wrist.

"Come with me."

The boy shrugged, stuffed the pouch back into his pocket, and followed the dark shadow of the man's back down the black street. The stones were uneven under his feet, and he almost stumbled and fell several times, but kept his eyes on his mysterious leader's back, knowing that to lose this man in the darkness of the street was to risk certain death. The Mafia did not appreciate strangers wandering its territory alone, no matter who they were.

The shadow stopped and there was a snick of a lock and the creaking of an open door. He followed the footsteps through the door, fumbling blindly up a flight of stairs, heard the opening of another door.

There was a sizzling sound as a match was struck, and as the light flared he found himself in a small, square room. He didn't know what he had expected this Gietti to look like, but the thin, hook-nosed, tanned man in front of him was definitely not what he might have pictured in his mind's eye.

"Proof," Gietti said, and the boy again untucked his shirt, revealing the tattoos. Gietti stared hard at them for a moment, then nodded once. He was in.

He stood quietly as the man crossed to the other side of the room, carefully unlocked a cupboard, took out several packets and laid them carefully in a metal box. Closed the box and looked up.

"If you drop this, it will kill you."

"I know," said the boy. "Is it pure?"

"Mostly." Gietti said. "It will do the job. What you do with it isn't my problem."

"I know," said the boy again. He waited until Gietti had crossed back, holding out the box to him, then took the pouch out of his pocket. Box and pouch changed hands, the tanned Mafia member suddenly gazing at the boy uncertainly.

"Do I...know you?"

The boy had turned to leave, business complete, but a ghost of a smile crossed his lips.

"You might."

"Wait-"

But the boy was already opening the door.

"There's a flashlight on the table to your left," Gietti said. "Killing yourself by falling down the stairs in the dark carrying nitroglycerin isn't a good way to go."

"Thank you," the boy said simply. He hadn't looked back.

He had gotten his pistol back from the burly man with little argument. He had been ready for a brawl, though he really hadn't wanted to fight, but surprisingly, the man gave him back his weapon with little argument, grabbing the pouch of cocaine eagerly and taking off. The boy didn't watch him go. As long as he got what he wanted, he did not care.

There was an anti-Gundam faction in one of the outlying cities in France which had caught his attention first, but he hadn't been sure what to do about it. He was not angry. People had the right to express their feelings, and he understood that on a purely intellectual basis, if nothing else, because he had never needed to let his feelings take control. It was something that fascinated him, and he watched the activities of the cell group for a few days, watching as they traded information back and forth, watched as they deliberated on their course of action.

They were confused. All of them were, he decided, not just this particular group, because it was no concrete enemy they were fighting, but something that couldn't be named, five enigmas who embodied ideals rather than facts. If that had not been the case, if they had planned a set course of action, he would have had to retaliate. But as it was, he simply sat and waited.

It was not that he wanted vengeance. It was because he had once been a soldier and a warrior and it was an eye for an eye. The old code was burned into his blood too strongly, and they needed to know that they were not fighting any simple enemy. They hadn't hurt his friends yet, so he would not hurt them. But it was something that had to be done.

A warning.

Then he had heard about the faction in Italy, heard that they were going into action. They were an American group, he learned, that had relocated to Italy and had connections with the Italian and American Mafia. He hadn't been too worried until the French group had gotten word about possible action, as they called it. Tempers and excitement ran high. Something was going to happen. The killers, as the resistance cells termed the military, were going to pay.

He had made it his mission to ensure that nothing would happen. At least, nothing that they were expecting. They had ties to the Mafia, but so did he, and he would use them.

The fuse in his hand was ice-cold to the touch and he stood there for a split second longer, then bent down and drew out the lighter from the front pocket of his coat. Lit it and watched the flame waver in the rising wind, then touched it to the fuse end.

The blue flames ate their way along the line, hungry, ravenous. He dropped the lighter back into his pocket, feeling as he did so the hard, flat, surface of the other object that was stored there. He pulled it out, not looking up as the flames licked at the broken wood of the trash heaps along the road and as those burst into flames as well, not watching the fire as it raced down the line into the blackness. The book's surface was tattered with age and the letters on the cover stood out sharply silver in the crimson flickering light.

Les Misérables.

The boy smiled, a gentle smile, as he bent down and placed the volume at his feet. They would find it, and he would let them make of it what they would, but it should be sufficient enough to let them know that they were being watched.

He heard the frantic running of feet and straightened quickly, fading into the darkness. Shouts of "Fire! Fire!" echoed through the night air and he closed his eyes, imagining the controls in his mind. Grasped those imaginary weapons controls, moved his hand into position, and squeezed the trigger.

"You're dead," he said softly.

The wind was cool on his cheeks, and the heat of the flames was warm on his skin, and as the first explosions began, the boy turned his back on the fire and began to walk.

 
Link to information on the
Italian Mafia.
Link to information on the Yakuza, the Japanese Mafia.
Link to information on Nitroglycerin, the chemical compound used in explosives such as dynamite.

 
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